I need lots of New Days to start over. Thank God He provides them all the time! :-) I'm so glad to be back home after that week in ICU with my brother (who is still recovering nicely, though not as fast as he would like. Thanks for asking.). And then I spent the next few days doing laundry and cleaning (40 Bags), and getting ready to go camping last weekend. I didn't feel like I was really home since it was "spring break" and we were still really busy.
Now the unusual busy-ness is over and we're back to the reality of homeschooling, which I love. Some days, like yesterday, it is really, really hard to remember why I love it. I had lots of opportunities to bite my tongue---the kids would probably say that I failed miserably, but I know that there were many, many times I succeeded! Even on the bad days, there is the joy of getting to spend all day with my beautiful children that God has given me. I don't like thinking about how quickly these days are going to come to an end.
Each day with them is such a gift! Each day I get up there are new opportunities to say "yes" to God and do better at my Lenten sacrifices, or just my daily duties. Do you think about how lucky you are to wake up every day? I mean, really think about it? Or do you groan, like me, overwhelmed by thoughts of everything you have to do today and all the things you'd like to change or do better at? (It's hard to be a Melancholic, let me tell you!) We all contemplate the gift that life is when tragedy strikes us or a loved one, but what about every single, normal, unremarkable day when everything in your life is going smoothly?
There are so many things I want to change, and I'm tempted to make sweeping changes that affect the whole family, but I won't. I'll concentrate on just of couple of things, for me, that will still affect the family, but in a good way, I hope. One physical, and one spiritual. That should be enough, don't you think? I don't want to take the risk that Satan will think I've taken on too much and come tempt me away from all my good intentions. Maybe I can just sneak these under the wire without being noticed.
What do you think? Are you taking on too many Lenten penances? Are you taking life for granted?
it always amazes me the people i find out who are melancholics like me. "you try living in this skin!! it ain't pretty up there (in my mind)!" My poor husband. My poor kids!
ReplyDeletein my most whiny voice: but i don't wanna beee a melancholiiiiiic (pout.)
i am doing little things/meaningful things. not too much. can't handle the "failure" LOL ;)
hmmm, am I a melancholic? I dunno. I don't think so. Most days I think how wonderful these kids and this life is. I have many many things to be grateful for and find humor in most things. Here lately I've been more melancholy and frustrated with things that I"d like to change and can't. But I know where a lot of that is coming from and that it'll pass....as does everything with time. Matter of fact, I was thinking just last night how I hadn't put anything FUNNY up on the blog in awhile. But then several things happened today that I thought..."now that's FUNNY!"...so Friday's frag post will be back to my usual weird sense of mommie humor. (there's a commercial-comment for ya)
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one day at a time, friend. the good days pass and so do the bad ones.