Monday, January 26, 2009

Just as I finished this and checked my mail, I found out that M. is being put on a ventilator. Please pray!

This is all I'm thinking about today as I go about my daily duties. I read this on Saturday and could only think of my friend M.L. with stage 4 brain cancer. Today after visiting her in ICU, it weighs on my heart even more than before. Why else should such a beautiful, loving woman have to suffer so much? Indeed, why did Jesus?
Thou lovest all things that Thou hast created. Thou art the lover of souls. How then is it, O Lord, that I am in a world so miserable as this is ? Can this be the world which Thou hast created, so full of pain and suffering ? Who among the sons of Adam lives without suffering from his birth to his death ? How many bad sicknesses and diseases are there ! how many frightful accidents ! how many great anxieties ! how are men brought down and broken by grief, distress, the tumult of passions, and continual fear! What dreadful plagues are there ever on the earth : war, famine, and pestilence ! Why is this, O my God ? Why is this, O my soul ? Dwell upon it, and ask Thyself, Why is this ? Has God changed His nature ? yet how evil has the earth become!

2. O my God, I know full well why all these evils are. Thou hast not changed Thy nature, but man has ruined his own. We have sinned, O Lord, and therefore is this change. All these evils which I sec and in which I partake are the fruit of sin. They would not have been, had we not sinned. They are but the first instalment of the punishment of sin. They are an imperfect and dim image of what sin is. Sin is infinitely worse than famine, than war, than pestilence. Take the most hideous of diseases, under which the body wastes away and corrupts, the blood is infected ; the head, the heart, the lungs, every organ disordered, the nerves unstrung and shattered ; pain in every limb, thirst, restlessness, delirium— all is nothing compared with that dreadful sickness of the soul which we call sin. They all are the effects of it, they all are shadows of it, but nothing more. That cause itself is something different in kind, is of a malignity far other and greater than all these things. O my God, teach me this ! Give me to understand the enormity of that evil under which I labour and know it not. Teach me what sin is.

3. All these dreadful pains of body and soul are the fruits of sin, but they are nothing to its punishment in the world to come. The keenest and fiercest of bodily pains is nothing to the fire of hell; the most dire horror or anxiety is nothing to the never-dying worm of conscience ; the greatest bereavement, loss of substance, desertion of friends, and forlorn desolation is nothing compared to the loss of God's countenance. Eternal punishment is the only true measure of the guilt of sin. My God, teach me this. Open my eyes and heart, I earnestly pray Thee, and make me understand how awful a body of death I bear about me. And, not only teach me about it, but in Thy mercy and by Thy grace remove it.

(Excerpt taken from Meditations and Devotions of the Late Cardinal Newman)
Please say a prayer for my sweet friend, that she'll be able to return home very soon to her family and that God will grant her a miracle.


  1. Last night after I spoke with you our family lit a candle and Sweety led us in prayer for M. Dib's dread of fire caused me to extinguish the candle last night, but I will relight it this morning so that every time we pass it we will lift M up in prayer. Also, for you during this time.

  2. how terribly awful - all for the Glory of God!
    prayer right now!


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