Are you a worrier? I am. I think it comes with being a Melancholic personality type. Reading that is a bit depressing. ;-) But, looking on the bright side, my Melancholia is balanced by a hefty dose of Choler!
I don't have a lot of trouble speaking in public, though I do get nervous, mostly butterflies in my stomach. I tend to make sure I am overprepared for any talks or presentations I have to give. (Unless I'm speaking with my Dear Husband, then I know that I'm covered no matter what!)
If I'm organizing an event, as I do all the time now for American Heritage Girls, I want to make sure that every detail is covered, and everything is perfect. But it never is. It can't be because I'm not God. And even if I were, I'd still be dependant upon the fallen Humans to do their parts!
Oh...wait...don't tell me! ..... Is this how He feels? Exasperated half the time because He worked so hard to make everything perfect, and we're not doing our jobs right, or at all, sometimes, and His Creation is less than He anticipated?
Oh, my. That's a bit humbling. I guess I did think I was God!
I started off writing about Worry, ready to explain how useless it is because it doesn't change anything. When all is said and done, it was the work we put into our task that made the difference, not the worry. That only made everything more difficult. And then I learn that the other reason for me not to get worked into a tizzy over every little detail is that I'm not God! I'm just one of his very, humble, little servants with a job to do, and I need to do my best for Him, and let Him handle the rest.
Thoughts for the day from three of my favorite people:
Pray and Work. ----St. Benedict
Pray, hope, and don't worry. ----St. Pio of Pietrelcina
Pray as though everything depended upon God. Work as though everything depended upon you. ---St. Augustine
There's a line in Steel Magnolias-- I know, such a high-brow movie choice ;-) -- where the daughter says to her mother "I never have to worry because I always know that you are worrying enough for both of us." That's me -- always worrying enough for everybody.
ReplyDeleteI often try to give it God and say it's in His hands, but I usually end up taking it back at some point.
I try not to worry much. If I start to worry about things in my life I could drown in the worrying. But every thing also brings joy.
ReplyDeleteI battled depression all my life.
I learned I do better if I intentionally find joy and leave the worrying behind me.
most of the time it works.
but right now I'm worried about friends, family, and patients on the East coast as the reports haven't come in yet.....